When did you Realise you had a Weight Problem
When i woke this morning, i realised i looked (how can i put this) looser, my stomach was not looking like a big hard ball anymore, and then it hit me i am Fat.
So my question to anyone who is reading when do you realise you have a weight problem?
Perhaps i should explain myself, I have always known i have been big, of cause you stand on the scales and they shout out “hey get off, your hurting me” and yes i did start weight watchers before i got out of bed this morning. However before today i would get out of bed, but on clothes and think “Erm not bad”, i know i am not ugly and i know i am not pretty but i do know that if i do my hair, put on the right clothes i look good, but this is denial isn’t it? Yes i might look good in hugh clothes but that just covers what is underneath. As soon as i take my clothes off (sorry for those that are cringing like me) i used to see a solid frame, no sags and bumps, because i am a very firm people, very solid like a rugby player, so no i am starting to loose that, and i am starting to realise that i am not firm like a rugby player i am actually fat.
I have to admit that is not a bad place to be, in fact i think it is good if you use it in a positive manner, because now i see that i need to loose it where as before i didn’t (if that makes sense) now i can see my shape can come back and that i can return to a slimmer me. I am fairly fit, i have to be with my job so it’s not fitness that bothers me but what could be going on under what used to be a firm ball, and the fact that i don’t really look that good in my clothes i just thought i did.
So i am glad i have started this and will enjoy watching my body change.
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